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Menahan nafsu

Eits.. sebentar.. definisi nafsu menurut wikipedia adalah..
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        sebuah perasaan atau kekuatan emosional yang besar dalam diri seorang manusia; berkaitan secara   langsung dengan pemikiran atau fantasi seseorang. Hawa nafsu merupakan kekuatan psikologis yang kuat yang menyebabkan suatu hasrat atau keinginan intens terhadap suatu obyek atau situasi demi pemenuhan emosi tersebut.[1] Dapat berupa hawa nafsu untuk pengetahuan, kekuasaan, dan lainnya;
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Jadi emang dah seminggu ini saya coba menahan apa pun emosi yang berlebihan dari dalam diri saya. Entah itu nafsu makan (ini yang sering) dan nafsu belanja. 2 hal itu yang jadi PR banget untuk bisa saya kendalikan.

Jadi kejadiannya gini.. dah sukes dong 4 hari ini bisa makan yang baik.. sarapan buah peach, makan siang bekel... makan malem ga menggila.. Memang dah rekor banget. Dan di hari ke5 disaat saat bosen banget, gatel pengen jajan. Dan jajan lah semacem ciki (dosa#1). Dan pulang rumah makan carbs di tambah carbs lagi (mie instant + lemang ketan sambel) (dosa#2)

Pagi nya saya ngerasa ga enak banget perut.. mungkin ini yang orang orang bilang bloated. So far masih ga terlalu menggangu. Karena ngelewatin tukang nasi lemak langganan, dan dah lama ga beli.  Mampir dan masuklah 1 piring nasi lemak itu (dosa lagi). Sungguh deh.. kondisi badan lebih enak hari hari sebelum nya waktu saya makan ke kontrol. Hari ini bener bener ga enak banget rasa perut ini. Today I've learned the hard way, that I need more serious to take care my own health.

Dilain hal, saya masih bisa ngontrol hasrat shopping. Ermm apa mungkin itu karena memang belum mampir ke moll aja ya..


Komentar

  1. sejak ada mama di rumah, gw jg jadi bawa bekel. kan mau nabung bikin cafe, hahaha. tp tetep aja pas ke sephora kalap >_<

    BalasHapus
  2. Ikut di bekelin jg dooong.. :P

    BalasHapus

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