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Januari si Bulan yang identik dengan 'New Year New Me'

Januari adalah Bulan dengan segala sesuatu embel embel 'baru'.. So ini adalah list segala hal baru di bulan baru ini:

1. Baru tau, kalo namanya nungguin jadwal operasi papa adalah sesuatu hal yang bikin deg degan. Jadi papa saya diharuskan menjalani operasi Hip replacement (di gugling aja ya). Dikarenakan papa memilih dengan menjalani prosedur BPJS untuk operasi ini, jadi kita bener bener harap harap cemas, nunggu gilirannya si papa untuk operasi. Bolak balik mama terus cari tau perkembangannya di RS. *pray* cepet cepet di operasi dan ga sakit lagi ya Pah!!

2. Dikarenakan point pertama, holiday CNY di revisi (#ciyeh..), mamih mertua dan baby J cao dulu ke Bandung dari awal Jan, dan saya akan nyusul nanti begitu dapet tanggal papa operasi. 2016 ini akhirnya ngalamin yang namanya rindu serindu nya sama baby J. Ini adalah hal baru untuk baby J n mommy, terpisah jarak T___T. sedih... tapi mama ada tanggung jawab di kerjaan.. ga bisa ambil cuti lama lama.. berat banget...

3.Ada insiden di kerjaan yang bikin ga enak. Erm.. sungguh ga enak. But baru kali ini ga mencak mencak esmosi, marah sih iya, kecewa sih so pastii. But seengga nya kekecewaan itu, masih bisa saya atasi dengan baik lah.. Because I decide to focus my energy for my Dad surgery / Dad health.


Semoga kita bisa lebih fokus sama hal yang positif ya.. positif untuk kita.. dan positif untuk sekeliling kita.


terakhir, I am not lucky, I am blessed.

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