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How you define if your life quite OK?

Sounds emo, but this is not emo (I think.. let me re-read again this post 2 years later :P If im still remember).

During my childhood my mom usually advise me to strive hard for my education.
'If you do well in your elementary, you will find easy to get good high school!'
'If you manage to get top 10, I bet you will accept by good University!'
'Good grade will lead you to scholarship and its a plus point for your employer later!'
Actually my mom its not a typical tiger mom or helicopter parent, as you know they will 'make sure' you will take the path for success. 
'Take that internship its a great opportunity to take higher career!'

Being raised for working class parent, who gather every pennies for my education fund. Middle class family that we need some second thought if we want to purchase something. Drive me to learn more, study hard, and grab any opportunity or possibility to have a decent life / good life.

Thank God, I'm fully financial independent since my university live. My thought at that moment, at least my parent no need to worry about me. What they need to pay its just for my brother and the food that we will eat. Then I work outstation. I know it was broke my dad heart. But the pay was quite OK. And for sometimes I able sent some money for my parents and save to bought them car. I was far beyond grateful. Its not to boast how I earned. It was simply becos my dad was sick, and not able to ride motorcycle.

After I empty my piggy bank. Then I left Indonesia. A new journey in foreign country. Then meet my soul mate and deliver a healthy baby. For short story, we are not living fancy here. I often use public transport, collect some coupon, and cook for lunch. In idea to saving more for our future investment later, erm.. a house maybe (Please God).

Now there's question that keep running in my mind. 'Am I heading to a good life?'
'Am I strive enough to get a decent life for my family(especially a good education for my precious baby). ' How I define 'quite OK' or 'decent life'?'
'Am I not grateful on this life?' (Oh God please forgive me)

So the big question is....
'How you define if your life is quite OK?' or 'How you define if your heading towards the life that you really dream of?'
Its not only about 'cha ching or ba bling' money thing.. LOL as you grow old, any money that I earn, I would try any possibility to earn more (in a correct way).

I still working hard to get along with my inlaws. I trying hard to accept any thing about my spouse. And trying to become a better mom. Also a homework to improve my knowledge and presentation skills. A long the way how I can comfortable being myself.

Actually I am not quite sure where this journey will bought us to. But as my prayer to God, to equip me with His vision, to teach me being humble and patient so I can hear God voice for my life / family.


Reader, How about yours?

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